I can’t believe our Girl has gone
I feel her around me in the house
I feel her nose prod my thigh
I feel her in the car with us
I feel her by the bed at night
I feel her fur on my hand
I look for her by the door
I see her stood in muddy puddles
I find myself elsewhere – in a film or in company
And I ask, “how can this be?”
How can life be normal when our baby has died?
I feel guilty when I laugh
I feel guilty about planning a future without her
I remember her joy
I remember her beautiful face
I remember her perfection
I remember her inner beauty
I remember her placid nature.
I remember she never did anything wrong
I remember her calmness
I remember her kindness
I remember her loyalty
I remember her love
We will never know her like again
We have precious memories
It has been a privilege to share her life
Such sadness
But 9 years of joy and love
I will try and live a better life in her memory
And try to live a life enriched by her being
And remember her ever giving love
from RICHARD & JANET PAGE